Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Did you know?

I have not written in so long. My friend, Cari, came and visited from MA and we had so much fun! Then I began my work for the Inspired by Grace reception which is this Saturday! I am so excited. Everything looks very good. I am blessed by the the vision I had for this 3-year celebration of my business. Bryan spoke as one of the clergy at "A Walk to Emmaus" this past week. The Lord used him powerfully, as He does with those who are willing to be less, so He can be more. I am honored to be his wife, but more than this, I am blessed to be his friend and supporter.

Everyday I see ups and downs.
I experience success and failure.
But, throughout it all I know I must decide to acknowledge the good things in the bad.
Failure can point to the Lord's love just as much as accomplishments.
It is OK if it takes years to accept this.
To possibly even allow the good to be seen in devastation is not natural, it is learned and believed.
It is an act of faith.
If someone would have told me this when I was hurting, I may have punched them in disgust.
But if we don't strive to battle, we loose ourselves and our ability to love.
And love is the ultimate purpose.
Isn't this worth fighting for?
Without it, we are ghosts.
And, in the end, although the pain is valid, we believe the lie that our love doesn't matter.
Or there in fact, died with those we cherished.
One belief in the lie, leads to the next, until we are paralyzed.
But, I believe nothing good stays the same.
We grow, whether for the good or bad.
Every day and every moment, we chose who we are going to be.
And there are consequences far greater than you can ever imagine.
One act of kindness and love, can change the world forever.

To end on, I would like to share 1 Corinthians 4:5
"At that time each will receive his praise from God."
Who am I that God would praise me? When I read this I was overcome with awe. I felt shocked that in the end I would stand before Him, in complete praise and He would in fact praise me?
Be Blessed. And always seek. There is so much waiting to be found.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

One Night With The King

Bryan and I rented the movie “One Night with the King” and it was great. The accuracy of the biblical history was exciting to see and interestingly powerful. I love the story of Esther and something happens when watching the characters come to life on the screen. It is a great way to show teens and older children the way of living long ago.
If you have the money, it is worth renting.

Friday, March 09, 2007


“I love the Lord, for he heard my voice, he heard my cry for mercy.
How can I repay the Lord for all his goodness to me?”
Psalm 116: 1, 12

We have been blessed this week through God’s people. I don’t deserve it and feel overwhelmed, but I know God has placed gifts to us for a reason and in return our response should be to praise God and be examples of His love as it has been shown to us.

May I take God’s provision and multiply it through my life. And where physical contributions lack, I pray the Lord will fill me even more to love the unlovable, care for the undeserving, and offer hope in Christ to people who dare not hope in anything.

Thank you.

PS. Thanks Lisa for the verse! I was looking for it forever.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

I will chose to say... "Blessed Be Your Name!!!"

Blessed Be Your Name

Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name
Blessed be your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name
Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name
Blessed be your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be your name
Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be your name
Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say Lord,
Blessed be your name

Does anyone know where this song is stemmed from in scripture? I have been searching for it and would love to know. I like this song because it affirms the reality of hardship and the goodness of a God who gives and takes away and is still in control. Today was a more difficult day to deal with because I witnessed this deep in my heart. But, I know everything will be OK because He is constant even when I don't feel like He is.

Friday, March 02, 2007


I must confess. I stayed awake for most the night deriving cruel and unimaginable ways to kill a bird. Obnoxiously perched outside it screamed, chirped, and sang for hours upon hours, upon hours and then some more. I lay there wishing we had a gun. As if I were a part of some unrehearsed reproduction of “Failure to Launch,” I’d wait for my perfect opportunity and take it, yet unlike them, I’d have no regrets, mocking bird or not. At one point I even went outside around 1 am to locate my evil inspired feather friend. In my sleep needed induced stupor I delighted upon the idea of clapping sandals together to make a big shot-like noise. I oh so gently walked as to not give it the upper hand of my arrival. I walked to the middle of the yard, then to the back, and now to the edge, when I realized birdzilla was beyond the creek in the opposite neighbors backyard tree. How did it seem possible for it to sound as though it were hovering on my window ledge but be so far away? I mean, what was it saying anyway? Was it happy? Was it sad? Was it dying? Only my hope. It shrieked and screeched for hours longer and gave up around 3 am. My dreams that night consisted of an evil 8-foot bird attacking the world by shouting mercilessly at its victims causing instant death through the ear drum. I wonder why I dreamt that?

Thursday, March 01, 2007

On Fear

It is amazing what people will do out of fear. Fear itself causes its victims harm to themselves, others they love, and distorts the choices made reaping consequences never imagined. It is a tool designed to deteriorate hope, numb the spirit, and ultimately cripple awareness of the hope Jesus offers. My past exemplifies this bondage. I reacted strongly to fear and its deceptive whispering lies. The easy things that initiate panic will not test us. It will be the fierce times. Challenges seeming impossible to overcome provoke this feeling inside of pure horror leading to a deeper level of abandonment. Why do we think Satan attacks with things we will be aware of and ready for? He perverts reality. He takes a situation that is true, like being financially challenged, and relentlessly assaults. It may be accurate there is no money, and he is right…but don’t listen, don’t stop there, there is more! And this is God. God says He does not give us a spirit of fear. Our emotions lie. They can be controlled by deceit. If Satan can rouse emotions of fear then it is easy to listen to him that we are nothing and God doesn’t care. Again, this is not true. God cares. Our challenge is not to never have fear…it becomes choosing what to believe when you do. Our battle is difficult because we tend to believe what we think instead of trusting God’s unwavering word. We might struggle further, but soon the point will come across and the fear is replaced with confidence not in ourselves, but in who God is in us.

Don’t let fear rule you. Chose the harder thing of trusting God. We are not Christians because it is easy. No one every said it would be. Loving God is a risk. It is not safe and it shouldn’t be. But we are in a war and your choice counts. And if you are discouraged, why not trust God because there is nothing else to loose?