This weekend went very well. We met with our birthparents and talked for two and a half hours with them. We also stayed with some very sweet people who were really loving and supportive to us. I don’t know exactly what to write about everything, as I really am still digesting it and praying over our visit. I was told that Elora is 3 lbs and 4 oz right now! It seemed like the Lord has been working in our birthmoms life too as she felt drawn to us and even mentioned that it might be a spiritual thing that gave her the desire to chose us. I can tell you that I don’t think I have ever been so nervous in my entire life as I was on Saturday. Right before we were about to pull up to the restaurant I could not think about what I was there for anymore or I was to become completely immobile. We drove up and our social worker was there with them and we walked up and I asked if I could give her (the birthmom) a hug and I did. Nothing felt weird or awkward. In fact we were so happy because we all took a photo together at the end. I will put it in an album for only Elora to see someday. We left and went back to our host family’s house and I kept saying over and over again “I can’t believe we just did that!” Who gets to do things like this in life? Not a lot of people. I felt so honored to have been given a chance to meet them and have Elora hear our voices for the first time! It is truly an amazing situation to be in and I thank God that we were given this opportunity.
We also visited the hospital that Elora will be born at. We got to see a little boy only 15 minutes old! I started feeling so much anticipation after we walked down the labor and delivery hall. When will we be here waiting for Elora?
On our way home I became really scared. I started thinking about how much I want everything to go well and worried that they might change their mind or something like that. I don’t know exactly what to tell myself though. All I could come up with is that I would have to concentrate on the Lord and make Him my most desired thing. I am already invested in this birthfamily and believe we were near Elora this weekend. I guess the waiting now for me is not going to be easy. I was doing fine up to this point. Now I am nervous. I can’t control what will happen. I can’t see into the future. I want it to be then so I can feel and see Elora and know she is ok and that we will bring her home. I am sure this is all very normal. I just have to guard my heart and keep praying. Please keep us all in your prayers. Pray that God will give peace to my heart. Pray that God will reveal His love to our birthparents.
Thank you all so much for your phone calls, e-mails, texts, and prayers. We will go back and meet with our birthparents again the first week in December. After that we will wait for Elora to be born and will be called as soon as the birthmother goes into labor. Can’t you just see me running to get everything in the car? I will have everything ready just in case in December. We will drive directly to the hospital and will be able to leave hopefully with Elora when she is 48 hours old.
For God's Glory and to show His Love.