Monday, November 17, 2008
Update on Adoption
Yesterday we got an e-mail from our social worker and it let us know that the birthmother is going to allow me in the delivery room. I cried when I read it and was so excited! It was not the original plan, but after meeting with us she felt like this would be ok. I feel so blessed right now. There is a lot that I look back on and ask "why" to. The pain of miscarriages, and losing Natalie. I asked questions and thought of so many reasons why it was unfair that I am unable to give my husband and family the gift of a child. But, there is nothing in me that feels like I am jipped or given a second best option. I feel like I have just been awarded the Nobel peace prize, climbed Mt. Everest, or had dinner with the President! Or maybe it is all three together! I feel SO unbelievably blessed. God has given me this situation and kept me safe to raise our baby girl. So, now I don't ask questions like "who gets told they are not able to kids that are as young as I?" I ask "who gets an opportunity like we do? Who gets to meet the birthparents and love them AND be in the delivery room when she is born?" I feel like the Lord is blessing us with a gift that gives me so much joy thinking about it, because it is something completely out of my control, it HAS to be Him doing it. I know that there is still more time to go by and we will meet and talk with the birthparents more, but I feel like things will be ok and I pray for them everyday. Not just for Elora, but for them, their hearts and emotions, joy and sorrows. I want them to know I care about them too. Keep us in your prayers. Thank you.