Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Room # ***4

The last thing she said to me was "I Love you."
I barely know her.
Just five minutes ago we meet.
Gracey walked proudly to her hospital bed and climbed in right next to her side and snuggled.
Not something typical for Gracey right off the bat
Isn't it amazing that you can tell someone so much about your life when you don't even know them at all?
A connection of the heart
A drop of insecurity and fear
Knowing that EVERYONE has fear
Why don't we come to terms with it, get past it, and take a chance with someone we don't know and love them?
A risk to open our lives
A risk we should take with joy
We chatted about losses, hopes, and dreams
I shared about Natalie and she told me about her dog whom she missed as she pet the now falling asleep Gracey at her side
She listened to me when I should have been the one being there for her
She was after all in the hospital bed, not me
Gracey relaxed and closed her eyes
So many faces we both see
In and out of rooms,
In and out of moments of pain, perseverance, and frustration
In and out of lives
Linking us together in plight
Tears pooled in my eyes
I asked her if I could give her a hug and kiss
and with admiration kissed her fragile forehead
I told her she is a blessing to me today, more than she could know
She had tears rolling down her cheeks
I had to go
5 minutes is all it took to show love and feel loved
5 minutes with someone I don't even know,
Room ***4 is she
I should've remembered her name
She was an angel to me
An instant friendship of the heart
We'd pray for each other,
she's praying for me,
I for her
I looked back not wanting to leave and with tears streaming again I said,
"I love you too"

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Inspired by Grace Artist Reception April 8

I have been blessed with an opportunity to display my work at our local Civic Center. In the mezzanine of the main auditorium there will be 20 pieces hanging as of April 1 and will be up until April 30. On April 8th, during Artwalk, I will have a reception from 5pm-8pm and I look forward to seeing my friends, family, and new faces! And, of course Gracey will be there, so it will DEFINITELY be worth coming to! If you can't make it feel free to come by anytime and take a look. I hope they bless you as the Lord has really laid on my heart many of the pieces.

I Need A Laugh

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Silent Prayer

What is a silent prayer?

A whispered hope

hushed grief

deep within these walls my Savior prayed his last

and His words broke the silence

* Basement at Golgotha, Jerusalem

Friday, March 19, 2010

The Follower

How can you say to a Shadow, “You are not real”?
Can't you see it?
Be shaded by its presence?
Does it not move with delight?
Slink with sorrow?

Consider its loyalty
Its persistence
It rests with you at nighttime
Awakens at dawns first light
Stretches, grows, shrinks, bends
A flexible companion ever by your side

Do not tell it
Let it be
Allow innocence to follow you
Wherever you go

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Testing, Testing, 1...2...3!

Studio up, test subjects unite! He-he! I love my little "test subjects"!!!!! They are the BEST! I mean really...can you have too many pictures of the people you love?

Gracey took this one for Auntie Barat.

False Hope?

Is the idea of "false hope" even possible? How can hope be false? It is purely the opposite, for hope can never be false. Hope is the action of belief knowing the outcome may not be what is desirable. Can hope truly exist when the outcome always turns out to be what we think is best? No. Hope is a part of Faith, it arrives when we do not know what the outcome will be. It assumes the unknown, weighs the possibilities, and even with what negative may arise, it still believes Good. Hope sustains those in pain, it allows survival to those labeled dead, it tells the bad it will not win. Hope is a reflection of who God is in a dying and painful world. And sometimes in the very raw moments of existence, it is the only thing left inside someone that will truly never be touched by evil, for it is a gift straight from our Maker's hands.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Plugged In

We found a GREAT website that gives reviews of movies, videos, music, TV, and games from a Christian perspective. I can't tell you how many times we refer to this web page before we rent or go see a movie. It doesn't tell you whether or not you should see it, but it does give you the tools to find out about the movies logic, language, sexuality, violence, and spiritual tones. I love it because there are so many trashy movies out there that I have had to literally turn off and return without even seeing. Click Below to visit their page:

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Activist Group Hands out Porn for Bibles


I can't even begin to express the sadness in my heart for this news story to appear in HLN. I have fought feelings of anger and disgust, but when it boils down to it, I actually am not that surprised. God, and any type of authority for that matter, is VERY offensive to those who live for themselves. I also know that more and more there is separation from those who Love and those who live in hate and the chasm will be WIDE enough to really see. I know it takes more faith to live as an atheist then to live for a God who Cares deeply.I believe the attention this is getting is also just what *atan wants to distract us and keep us angry about something religious so we don't even act our Faith. There will be PLENTY of other situations like this to come. But it even ends up demonstrating how important Truth is in that IT was what was focused on. That should say something to people. Porn never changes any one's life for the good. Looking at it doesn't bring love, only lust. But God IS Love. We are the ones who messed it up. The fact there is sin in the world isn't because God does awful things, it began when WE chose sin and now as time goes by there are so many different results of that sin...murders, illnesses, death of innocent, divorce...and on and on it goes. In the past I blamed God so much for the pain I have been through, but I really believe He was the good guy in it all. We screw up the world with our sin and He still Provides His Love and Comfort for us. He is worth every tear I have cried.

So good for you activist group at UT in San Antonio. I am glad you feel like you accomplished your point, but I pray one day you will feel the Love of God so immensely you will cry at the remembrance of your pride, for what you so proudly stand up for is really only your doubt.

Thursday, March 04, 2010

Avatar & the Book of Eli

Two movies that are a "got to see"...


Seeing Avatar in IMAX 3D was wonderful! Thanks Ellen! The affects were great and the story was touching. It wasn't just seeing a movie, it truly was an experience! See it in the theater while you still can, you wont regret it, even if you look silly with the 3D glasses on!


the Book of Eli

We just saw the Book of Eli today and were blown away by it. It was worth going to see for sure! WOW! A great ending!

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

Time is not just a Clock

There are lots of ways to measure time
A clock
Hours, minutes, seconds adding toward future moments
Days, months, years, or decades
Anniversaries, birthday's, moments you promised to always remember
But sometimes it is measured by how long you have been apart from someone you love
By days that go on without
It can be measured by waking or sleeping
Or by staring at the ceiling with tears rolling down your face
Time can be a fierce enemy or beloved ally
ready to turn on you when you least expect it
And then there is the immeasurable
the moments that are eternal within ones heart
and the idea that time can never fathom it's depth, touch, or take it away

Monday, March 01, 2010

Not Fun

I got very sick this past week and ended up in the ER for 7 hours trying to get me to stop throwing up blood. It was so terrible, I felt like I was chocking and couldn't breathe so they put me on oxygen, a heart monitor, stuck 1 IV in and I threw up so hard it infiltrated and they had to do a second one leaving me with a MONSTROUS bruise that goes around my whole entire wrist, waited 4 hours until they finally gave me some zofran, then had to do a chest x-ray and finally they determined I had a real bad flu! I guess with my Lupus and how hard I was vomiting my whole body just went into shock mode. My sweet mother-in-law came to take care of me as Bryan missed a day of work to take me to the hospital. She seriously has super powers and has cleaned, cooked, and just made me smile while feeling so yucky. My friend Jenn rescued us on Thursday and got my medicine and food for us! Gracey of course has been extra-snugglelicious. The worst part about this is how long it takes me to recover my strength, even now I am still very weak. My poor friend and Photography Student has been cancelled on the last two weeks! I feel like I've dropped off the face of the earth! In time I'll be back to myself!

So what do you do when you are feeling so yucky...you amuse yourself with taking silly pictures on your cellphone!

Gracey was happily snuggled deep under the covers before I had the ingenious idea to take a photo with her, you can see the confusion in her little face! LOL! Poor thing.

Hear no evil (my beloved ear plugs!)

See no evil

Smell no evil! (That's the way it goes, right?)

I know these photo's will come back to haunt me someday! LOL! What can ya do?