I wish I could explain all that is in my heart. It is so hard for me. Most did not know we were pregnant at all. Not even our family. When we found out we were pregnant with Micah, we prayed and without a doubt heard clearly that we were to walk this road with the Lord and not worry about how or when to tell everyone....that this season with this pregnancy was ours to cherish. We did not expect it, nor were we surprised. God has always confirmed in my heart that we were going to have a child...that He would restore what the locust ate...He would give me back what was taken. 8 years later, in this NICU, I sit in front of my daughter and smile...VICTORY. God's Victory!!!!! It is not the way I would have planned it to happen, but I am soaking it all in....I am happy....I am truly in awe of the Lord and I am smiling big enough for Him to see in heaven. I think back to a little over a year ago...when we buried Josiah and I cried out to God in that hospital room..."Do You see me????" I said over and over. I say it again every time I hold my daughter...."God....my Daddy....Do You see me?" There are a lot of tears in my eyes, I hug her as tight as I can without making her monitors go off, and I breathe. "I see you, Olivia. I see you." And He is no doubt smiling too.
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I am blessed....full....and I wait upon the Lord to keep healing Micah's lungs and growing her body strong. My prayer and my future involves our daughter, healthy and strong and a POWERFUL testimony that God keeps His Promises!!!!